Busy epiphanies

Really I've only had one epiphany but it was a good one. More on that in a minute.

Things have been busy busy busy around here lately. My job at the zoo is going full bore and I'm loving every minute of it. A job that I so tentatively took about two months ago I now find myself madly in love with and terrified that I may be let go due to budget constraints (the zoo is a nonprofit and we all know how nonprofits fare in recessions...). I'm hoping hoping hoping that my measly salary is really only seen as a blip on the zoo's accounting spreadsheet so that if they start making cuts I won't be a casualty. So instead my team is working on ways to bring in revenue so that no one's jobs are at risk. Wish me luck - we have a few months left to pull it off...

My company is still humming along despite the lack of attention it's been getting. I actually spent a lot of time involved with that group tradeshow ad and getting that whole thing coordinated and I must admit that all the hairpulling paid off. The ad came out beautifully and is going to look great at the show. Plus it only ends up costing each party about 1/4 of what it would have cost each of us individually so it's win win for everyone. I'm really happy with the way it all worked out.

So now for the epiphany...I spent most of July going back and forth in my head about the viability of keeping my company going given that my workspace is probably no longer going to be an option come the end of the year. I do have the option of turning my backyard shed into a workspace or finding another workspace all together but before I did either I wanted to guage the level of commitment I had to the business. No need to move all the stuff from one space to another just to want to shut it all down a year later. What my month of self-reflection finally revealed is that I do love the business and want to continue with it and that a lot of anxiety I've been having over it has to do with some of the contentious relationships in my current workspace. I'm still waiting to see how the holiday season pans out for me and if I get a couple of the accounts I'm hoping for, but if so I'm more apt to try and get a portion of our shed builtout and use that as my workspace. We'll see though...I'm not committing to anything until I see how the rest of this year goes.